February 2012
33 posts
Goal by the end of this year: Start working beats on my MPD, connect it to mic’s and a piano, finish completing my ‘mini-studio’, and produce.
I need too, I have too.
Life’s going amazing for me right now. Everything’s in it’s place, and I’m happier than ever. Livin’ the good life is pretty good on my part. I just hope I can keep it up.
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It’s all a matter of getting your OWN shit together. If your mind is in the whole game, everything will come as a breeze after that. Stay on top of school, make sure that your top priorities are what you’re focusing on. Rather than sitting on your ass waiting for something to happen, make it happen. Push yourself to the point where you know you’re confident enough to be...
Fuck love?
No, fuck the person who made you think like that. When you think about it, love is actually a beautiful thing. But things change, and people fuck up. Love can only be kept in the right way when both people are working at it. Love can be temporary, or last close to forever. But people store in their minds that love is horrible from living in the past. Yes, it’s hard to fall in love, and hard...
Lol, I’m done trying to hit you up. You want to talk to me? I’m a call or text away. Other than that, I’m not going to wait for something to change. Been there, done that, never again.
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Apparently, ‘I act like I’m the shit.’ Well damn, I must come off differently. Cause last time I checked, I never said I was. Apparently, I act like ‘I’m so damn smart’ when in reality, people don’t know how to take a joke. People don’t get my sarcasm. People aren’t around me well enough to know how I act from time to time. It irks me so much...
Once they have you, they stop doing the things that it took to get to you. Why? They never knew what they had until it was gone. Better yet, they knew exactly what they had. They just didn’t know they would leave.
I want someone that will do everything, and ANYTHING to meet me halfway. Whether it’s a minute, or 5 seconds. I want to spend every moment I could with him, and have him willing to do the same. I want someone that I could talk to constantly, and vent to whenever I need to. I want someone that will make me feel like I’m on top of the world, and make more sacrifices than I have in a...
What if I just left you? Would you love me then? Well, guess what. I’m not going to wait around for something to change. If you want me, you need to work to fix things. I’m tired of wondering; wondering when’s the next time YOU will actually put in an effort to talk to me. What happened to talking to me whenever you could? Now it’s like, I can only look forward to a 5-10...
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I hate the fact that people think it’s okay to talk down on me. Who tf you think you are? Do you think talking shit makes you a better person? Because it doesn’t. You go around thinking you’re the shit, when you aren’t. You act like you’ve never made a single mistake in your life. You make yourself look like you’re so damn perfect. And when someone else talks...
I need a guy that would be able to keep up with me. I’m busy all around the clock. School, family, producing music, and practices for everything are always on top of my list. I don’t want a guy that complains constantly about me not talking to him every minute of every day. But I want a guy that’s able to let me have my independence when I need it, and show me love at the same...
Idk why, but I’m hella excited for tomorrow. It’s just what I need! A girl’s night out. Movie, and dinner! Ain’t nothing better! Plus, I get free admission to basketball games before that. Haha.
This weekend and tomorrow is about to be amazing.
Cut the excuses, and the bullshit. Grow up, and live life. People stay wasting their time on unnecessary things. Idgaf if it meant a lot to you, or w/e the situation may be. You don’t just give up over one thing, and think the world is going to end. Every single person in this world is capable of overcoming every single obstacle that life throws at us. The only person stopping you is...
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Slowly changing myself for the better. I’m starting to see everything in a brand new light. I feel confident, and positive. Damn, you have no idea how long I’ve waited for this moment. And now that it’s happened, nothing can stop me now. I’m determined to keep my life this way. No regrets, no negativity. Going for mine, from now on. Personal success is finally coming to me,...
Have you ever felt like an outsider in your own family? I know I have. For example, at family parties, there’s always those certain people you know you’ll say hi to. You hug them, hang out with them, and all that other shit. But then the rest act like strangers around you. You know they’re there, and they know you’re there too. But I guess it’s the fact that you...
‘On the outside, I’m happy. In the inside, I’m not.’ You know what I say to that? Bullshit. You can’t be happy on the outside, without being happy on the inside during that moment. Because I know for sure, that when you’re irritated, and annoyed on the inside, you most definitely show that on the outside. There are no loop holes in a person. The outside is a...
Don’t let old relationships become a factor in your recent one. Bringing the past into something new, and fresh proves that you’ll never let go. It proves that you let the past define you. Although you shouldn’t be afraid of your past, since it makes you who you are, it’s best to try and forget about it. It’s all a part of the ‘moving on’ process....
I love having those blunt-conversations with people close to you. Those are the only conversations that keep my head in line. No bullshit, nothing. They tell you straight up what’s wrong without a moment’s hesitation. They know what’s best for you. So even if what they say hurts, all of it is legit. They don’t tell you what you want to hear, but what you need to hear. I...
Life is full of chances and risks. You either take it, and settle with it, or take it, and regret it. Outcomes can be horrendous on many different levels. You never know, unless you try.
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I’ve learned that it’s hard to ‘fall in love.’ The fact that it’s ‘love’ I may not even know if it’s real, or not. You take months, maybe even years, to build up all the trust, jokes, and all those unique qualities in every relationship. But one thing can fuck it all up. And that’s the hard part. Putting all the pieces together to make it close...
Once you got em’, keep em’. Don’t fuck with anyone else. You’re gonna regret the fact that you won’t have the chance to get back with em. Why? You needed to find that happiness in someone else. That itty-bitty space. You went behind their back, and they had to find out on their own. Did you even try to make it work? Nope. Did you even try to stop the arguing, and talk...
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I need guy that isn’t camera shy. I want to be able to capture every moment we have together. I want you to make silly faces with me, and most importantly, SMILE! I’m the kind of person that likes to carry my camera around with me everywhere. I want to be able to look back and reminisce on that exact day. What we did, where we went, what we ate. Through pictures, I can see love. So if...
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Why me? Why out of all females, you choose me? I’m fucked up in the head. I’ve done things I’m not too proud of. I’m broken, and I’m lost. I’m bi-polar, and I do things that I know Ill regret. I’m not pretty enough, nor could I offer as much as these other females. I’m not doubting the relationship, I’m doubting myself. I want to be able to...
It’s always a good reassuring feeling knowing that the youngin’s close to you are doing so well in life. In my case, they’re all girls. But it’s nice knowing that people look up to you a lot, and are willing to make you proud. I’ve tried my best to make my older cousins, and family members proud. It’s just nice to see the day when that starts happening for me....
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It’s hard to pick up your pride when there’s a million other reasons that are stopping it from being so easy. When you start hearing things many times, you start to believe them. They get drilled into your head, and you make it apart of your mind. You can’t help but think about each, and every one of those problems. Why? You’re more worried about the downside of things,...
I believe that everything happens for a reason. People change so that you can learn to let go. Things go wrong, so that you appreciate them. When they’re right, you believe lies, so you eventually learn to trust no one but yourself. And sometimes, good things fall apart, so better things can fall together.
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If you’re on top of your game, driven by ambition, and intellectual in thought with gentleman ways, you have my heart.
January 2012
46 posts
Is it possible to have a relationship that looks beyond the boyfriend/girlfriend label? Because honestly, I think I’ve found it. Months of being solid is turning into something I can see a future with. We’re not together, yet we act like we’re more than that. Even passed the wife/husband stage. Call me crazy, but he’s the only one that keeps me on my toes.
I’ve learned to cope with shit on my own. It’s better that way. Why? My business ain’t all out there. No stories are getting twisted, and no bs occurs. Funny how people don’t see, or recognize the fact that some people are more sensitive than others. It ain’t all jokes to me.
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I hate make-up. Not even on that, ‘natural look is better’ shit. But I’m dead serious. I hate it. I don’t get why females spend 10-15 JUST on their face. I mean, I get that you’re making yourself feel comfortable; look your ‘best’ always, and think it looks pretty, but damn, really? Some girls take it overboard and end up looking like a damn clown. The...
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Situations are starting to change. Everything is losing it’s place. I just don’t know what to do anymore; other than sit here and watch it go by. Although I’m tired of waiting, ‘patience is a virtue.’ I just hope all this wishing and waiting will get me somewhere. I’m tired of anticipating things to happen. I try so hard to make things happen, yet they never...
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This song always gets me back in a good mood.
I used to be a positive person. But too much was said. Too many things got around. Too many people left. Too many people made promises, and didn’t keep them. Too many people messed around with me. Too many people crossed the line. Too many people told me what I can, and can’t do. Too many people said something one two many times, and I started to believe it. Too many people judged me,...
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Good vs. Bad intentions.
My good intentions ALWAYS get twisted for bad intentions. People always judge me before they even know me. They base their way of treating me, from things they hear. I keep things to myself now, because whenever I open my mouth, people judge me. Certain stories get twisted to make me look like a complete bitch. I’ve stopped trusting people. Why? People will do everything, and anything to...
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I absolutely HATE rude females. Lookin’ at you from head to toe, like they’re any better. Talking to you with attitude, and treating you like shit. Who tf you think you are? Do you think that you can just talk to me, like it’s nothing, and make smart-ass remarks? Not in my book. Don’t ever expect me to be quiet, and be okay with w/e you say after you cross the line. Swear,...
fukcnjaynee:
If a man is able to go off, doing his own thing. Without any complaints from his girl, but still able to come home faithful to her. He’s a keeper.
It’s always nice to know that’ he’s too busy on his toes handling things, then being with other females and unwanted bullshit. Ain’t got no time for those nonsense. Making stacks, loyal and faithful to his boys, while making his...
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#1 thing I hate: Liars. What’s stopping you from telling me the truth, straight up, without beating around the bush? You think I’d be hurt, and crushed? you think that you’ll ruin our friendship, or w/e? Maybe, yeah. But trust, I’ll be hurt 10x more if I have to find out about it on my own. Especially when I confront you, don’t come to me with this, ‘I was going...
I’m not going to get into a relationship with someone I don’t find attractive. Call me ignorant, whatever. I’m not even gonna front. How do you expect myself to get into a relationship, when I’m not even comfortable around him? Yeah, personality wise, they may be amazing. But if that’s it, I can’t take that. We could stay close friends, but nothing more....
If someone calls you cute, take the compliment. You saying, ‘no. I’m not,’ makes things worse. Why? If they didn’t think you were cute, they wouldn’t have said it. Even if you’re insecure, just take it. By taking it, you’re showing yourself that you’re capable of overcoming it; the more you hear it, the more you’ll believe it. Confidence is...
Idk about you, but getting ‘jealous of couples’ is tiring. You see females ALL over that are whining, and saying they’re ‘forever-alone.’ I can’t stress enough, how much you could just get off your ass, and find him! Relationships develop over time. Would you rather wait or keep trying, and get it right? Or whine, and keep yourself away? Take advantage of the...
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One day.
One day, I’m going to take Bart with my boyfriend, and get off in the most random, and rarely-visited places on the map. The whole day, we’ll go exploring each city. Eat at some mini coffee shops, or any restaurants we find. Take pictures here and there, and do the dumbest things ever. We’ll find a park near by, and have a little picnic, with just the two of us. Then, we’ll...
'You never talk to me anymore. I miss you.'
Lol, okay, and? Don’t ever tell me that you miss me if you don’t put in any effort in trying to talk to me. Because 1, you’re either going to ask something of me, and use me in some way by kissing my ass before you ask; or 2, you’re bored, and I’m your last option. Want me to talk to you? Hit me up. I’m tired of talking to people that don’t acknowledge the...
"Ambition & Independence."
A guy with an ambition, and independence is pretty damn attractive. I need a guy that KNOWS exactly what he wants in life. A guy that looks forward to the future ahead of him, and will do everything, and anything to get there. One that’s actually focused, and wastes his time on no bullshit whatsoever. One that has that, ‘I can do it’ mentality. One that doesn’t let anything...